Donald Holben:  

I lost my son, 45, just a week ago. Approximately 8:30 last Saturday, April 6, I received a call from his wife Allison, obvioiusly crying. She said, Chris killed himself. I said what?? "Chris just shot himself in the head. He killed himself" The police are still here. Oh my god, oh my god!!! This is all that came from my mind, my mouth. His poor wife witnessed the terrible tragedy in their bedroom. Their kids were in another part of the house. Chris was apparently handling his gun badly, his hand was shaking from a problem not yet diagnosed. I did not know he had a gun or he had a physical ailment that caused this uncontrollable shaking. I did not know he was taking Adderall (It was not prescribed) or that he was drinking every day. He did a lot of range shooting in the past, as a hobby, with his wife and boys. Apparently he had a "hair trigger" put on his gun. His wife said he was proud of this alteration to his gun. . However, a bump, slight touch or probably in this case, a shaking hand is all it took to go off. I buried my son on Thursday, April 11 at 10am, near Dallas. No clue what was going through my dear grandson's heads as they lived throu...Expand for more