Jeremy Massoud:  

Life I new that partying and doing drugs got me nowhere in life. I was expelled from schools, and thought that I needed some truth in my life, so I began to search for the truth. After traveling around the world, sailing, hitchhiking, flying, taking trains and buses to some very remote and exotic jungles and beaches, I still felt like there must be more to life than what I had experienced. I studied many philosophers and religons, cults, and spiritualism and found that they were empty, circular, illogical, unapplicable, yet they all did have some truth to them. But as Sam Harris says, in his book "The End of Faith": they all cannot be the truth. I knew that I wasn't perfect nor could ever be perfect. So I realized that driving for perfection and achieving perfection were very different. I wasn't going to to follow someone who said follow me while I search for the truth, or follow someone who hasn't even achieved nirvana but is promising and hoping they will some day. Realizing that I was a fallen creature and needed real love, I new that all of the self help books "the secret" and such were miniscule attempts to masc the bigger problem: My seperation from the love of God. Returning to Hawaii, as a bartander, I soon realized my life was going nowhere and I needed a purpose in life, other than getting girls, and doing drugs and boozing it up. I felt empty and hopless. I saw through all of the fake people and their "having fun all the time" was getting really old. For the first time in a long time I prayed to God to show me a way out of my mess. Forgeting about my prayer, the bar manager started stealing money out of my drawer and was fired. However, I was demoted to barback because my drawer was always shor...Expand for more