Ruthanne(Phillips) Marchiani-Crawford:  

Life Not only survived 50, now closer to 60,but I am an 9 year breast cancer survivor! Life is good, just waking each morning brings meaning to my life. Of course, having 3 grown married children and two DELIGHTFUL grandaughters, makes my world AOK! Now at 58, retired, and spend my time visiting with my grandaughters, my parents(yes 88 & 89) in Fla, My daughter & her husband in Fla, friends in Fla and Jamaica and north jersey Sandy Hook beach all summer!!! Life is good, I am sooooooooooooo Blessed! LIFE CHANGES ON SUN MAY 25TH,2009 I LOST MY FIRST BORN DUE TO A HORRIFIC MOTORCYCLE ACCIDENT...NOTHING IN LIFE PREPARES A PARENT FOR THIS....A HOLE NOw REPLACES WHERE ONCE A HAPPY HEART WAS MY SPIRT HAS BEEN BROKEN AND THE PAIN UNBEARABLE....MICHAEL LEAVES BEHIND A VERY AILING WIFE WHO IS IN DIRE NEED OF YOUR PRAYERS....I WILL GO ON LONGING FOR THAT DAY WHEN MY FAMILY AS I KNEW IT, CAN ONCE AGAIN BE MICHAEL, MY SON, RIDE ON LIKE THERES NO TOMORROW, FOR YOU ,THERE IS NONE...BLOW THE BLACK SMOKE OUT OF THOSE CROME PIPES AND RIDE TILL YOUR HEARTS CONTENT....FEEL THE WIND,WATCH OVER US AND KNOW THE ACHING IN MY HEART AS I TRY TO LET GO....I LOVE YOU MY SON Life Goes on time goes on 6 months have passed since i lost my son.........the pain has yet to lessen, doubt it ever will, my heart is broken as is my spirit, my tears still fill my eyes at the slightest thought of my son....how am I to grow old when he never will........i wait, and wait and wait, i know he is not coming home, but the mother in me waits just the same..it sucks.I hate it,,,but I wasnt given a choice...I go day to day I wonder where he is is how he is if he can see me feel my pain or does he know how proud Iwas and am to be his mom, does he know how wonderful he was or how much he is missed...........questions...Expand for more