Shannon Canning:  

AN AIR FORCE BRAT. I was born in Germany, rise in Myrtle Beach, SC until 13teen, we left Germany when I was 16teen and than it was off to Alamogordo, NM. It was September 1994 before return to South Carolina which was after my first child and my only child was about 2 years of age. Who am I???????????? I have always been a friendly, loving, caring, honest person in my opinion. I would say that I am more dependent on others then being an independent person, so it make since to say that I am a follower not a leader. Sometime, you make friends or hook up with people that are not good to you. I made mistakes in my life. People like my parent are always telling me how stupid I am...how I cannot make any good decision in life. I am not stupid!!! I am just too caring & trusting in others making me gullible. In addition, I do have struggles in my life because of ADD, Written Expression Learning Disability, Depression with a Bipolar Mood Disorder, and Anxiety Disorder. Because of my anxiety, I learned I now have problems with communication. Communication problems will depends on my mood and the situation around me. For example, when nervous and anxious, I will talk too much. I might try to run or own the conversion. It is known as Power Talking. It comes from being use to not talking and when I did talk, no one heard me. Remember that I am normally shy, quiet and trying to hide from people. For some reason I develop bad communication just to be heard. For example talking too loudly or I tend to interrupt people, I repeat myself a lot. I am a serious person. I am an animal lover: my favorite is cats. To love me is to love cats!!! Mostly my cats!!!! One of my favorite Cats in the world is Garfield.I like to think that I have similar personal trait like Garfield. No matter how mean Garfield is to Odie, he still needed to feel loved and wants to cuddle up with his favorite Teddy Bear, Pooky, at the end of the day. I can be stubborn, Jealous and Grumpy, too. I want to find my Teddy Bear. Remember, Winnie the Pooh character Eeyore. As you get to learn to love me maybe, you can overlook my negative outlook on life similar to Eeyore personality. I need a good loving person to help me be more positive, help me have fun again. I know we get tired of people who are negative and depressed but we need love too. Who I wanted to be??????? To be truthful, I am still trying to figure out who I want to be. I had different idea at different points in my life about who I wanted to be and nothing ever went according to plan or was far opposite of the dreams. Being a failure in life has become a big weight on my shoulder that I cannot let go of and move on. Since I am so stubborn that might be why I am still trying to achieve success or appreciation from somewhere or from someone. I am too old and too tired to be struggling to find that success or appreciation. Today, I am fighting with a weight problems due to Hashimoto’s Disease and possible Thyroid Cancer. Cancer is not 100% determine they want to go in and remove the right side and confirm it and then go back to remove the rest of it.".