Sharon Swoish:  

now. Recently, it has become quite clear to me, that I will never be able to give my full potential to this company, because they will not allow me to. This has been a let-down for me. For the present, I am trying hard to accept this new realization and do my best every day I am at work. I am intelligent and can do much more and hope that I will be able to give my full potential in a more rewarding career in the near future. I cannot play the games that are played in this company, as they do not agree with my standards of ethics. I am just glad that I have realized this. I would appreciate any input from anyone reading this. I am a hard worker, a fast learner, mathematically inclined, a "people person" and live by strong morals and ethics. I am dependable. Sound like a resume? Maybe, it is! Then, Respond! Military I was never in the military. My 3 older brothers all enlisted and went to Vietnam. I was always traumatized by the media news during those times. Then, my brother, Tony was sent "home" (age 19)- because he stepped on a mine on the front lines (Marine), He "lived" barely 8 years after that. Nick came home after serving 2 terms, and was never again the same brother, I knew when he left. I "hung-out" a lot with my brother Nick until the day he died. I heard all the stories, and watched my brother live and relive Vietnam, over and over, and over, his entire life. He suffered severely with Post Tramatic Stess Disorder, and he never got through it. This, on top of the negative behavior lifestyle he chose to live made him an outcast to friends, and most of the family. He never held a job for very long at all. He spent his days that he had left, trying to get the Govt. to pay him back for being in Vietnam during the Agent Orange Operation. It never happened. He was in and out of the V.A. Hospitals on a regular basis, and it seems that was the only place he could get any comfort. He became an alcoholic. I joined him. I found myself defending my brother for all of his actions. Nick gave up on life on September 27, 1997 , at age 51. I continued to drink harder then ever before. It wasn't until May 4, 1999, that I took my last drink. (I hope!) It took me about 4 years of being sober, to get through my resentments about Vietnam. Since then, I have met many Vietnam Vets, who feel the same way he did, but a lot of them are at least trying to live a good lifestyle today. I have also met some, who live the same way he did. I have been to visit the Moving Vietnam Wall 3 times, and one good thing that has come out of it is the realization that I am not alone, and neither is any Vietnam Vet on the face of this Earth. The last time I visited the Moving Wall, I volunteered my services to help people look up names on the Wall,and shared many stories, with many people. Today, when I know I am meeting a Vietnam Vet, I always put out my hand and say "Thank You". I think that is what Nick always needed. People to just say "Thank You". The Govt. messed up the public's minds about the Vietnam Vets. This in turn, messed up the Vietnam Vets... As for my other brother, Charlie, he spent 3 terms, and brought home a wife. He is still alive today. I don't see him very often, but I think of him always.... So, this is a small part of "my" Military Bio.... I WAS NOT THERE, BUT I DO CARE!!!!!