Allen Rider:  

CLASS OF 1978
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Shaw High SchoolClass of 1978
Mobile, AL

Allen's Story

Entered Shaw March of 1977, graduated 2 June 1978. I remember the class being so very large - much larger than the one I was part of at Baker - I'd say 4 or 5 times larger. Wasn't really a stand out kind of guy - concentrated mainly on the required subjects, and took DECA as a way to leave class by noon and work while completing both my JR and SR years. I had few friends - though the ones I recall were mostly kids like myself, who stayed to ourselves and were not into the popular scene. Admired a lot of people at Shaw, mainly the teachers. In particular Mrs. Farley and Mr. Wright and Mr. Graves. Once I graduated, within a year I was enlisted in the U.S. Navy. 21+ years later I retired and returned to Alabama, - Foley was my home from Late 2000 until July 0f 2014. I never married, never had children. Played the field to be sure, but knew even in the very early years of my life that I was not living a life that was going to end up productive in the familial sense. The Navy was the best choice I've ever made, and the hardest thing I ever voluntarily signed up for. I learned how to stand on my own two feet, make choices and decisions which helped shape the man I am today. It also kept me from being honest and true to whoI truly was then and who I am today, but that was part of the sacrifice and part of the commitment I had made. In the first years, I had a very hard time adjusting, keeping myself focused; however, as the years passed, as I became higher in rank I learned that the only thing that mattered was serving my country and all of the other stuff in my head was useless. It was the height of the Cold War - real war games were being played and I spent 17 years of my 21 years - on a ship, at sea and loving every moment of it. I traveled the world over, east coast, west coast, Pacific, Atlantic, Mediterranean, Persian Gulf, Indian Ocean, Arctic Sea, Sea of Japan, Philippine Sea, Red Sea and all the land masses that touched each body of water. Europe, Africa, Southeast Asia, South America, Guam, Japan, South Korea, Hong Kong, the Philippines - I've dined with Ambassadors, Foreign dignitaries, future politicians, Joint Chiefs, Commanding Officers and my fellow shipmates - learned the cultures of each place I've been and found that in order to love one's own country - it is imperative that one learn to love those countries and cultures it does not fully understand - differences and all. It is very true what they say about world travel - it really is the one thing which can rid us of bias, bigotry and far fetched assumptions about other lands, its people, their culture. Much changed in me while I served my country - the most important of which was getting myself out of the way in order to make everyone else the priority - the mission as it were. The friends I've made, the unbreakable relationships that to this day keep me alive and excited for each new day I'm given - hoping that one day I can be in the presence of these wonderful humans once again. Today, I live in Tampa, Florida. I thoroughly love this place and hate it too. Love the culture, the vibrancy, the total graciousness of it - Hate, the unending heat and the eventual hurricane that is bound to make our lives a collective hell on earth - just as FREDRICK did 5 days before I left for boot camp on 17 September 1979. I moved here in 2014, very shortly after finally ...Expand for more
accepting my life for what it was,and could have been ... would forever be. At the age of 53, I did what I should have done 30 years earlier - I embraced my real identity and in turn came out to my Parents, and Sister. It went as well as one could expect it to, given the staunch southern Baptist raising I had been given. Nonetheless, I pressed onward, never denied my love and faith in Jesus, God nor my own salvation. To this day, I have still yet to enter into a relationship with a person of like mind - let alone ever having been able to find love. During the Navy years, it was easy to be chaste, to put off my inner lusts and true longings, once I figured out how to do it. I learned to play a role, to be straight - "normal" for the crowd, the camera - I pretended to be a playboy of sorts and before long that role was how I was regaled. Women flocked to me in foreign ports, and ladies of the evening gave me my "out" - all the while making me nauseous and ashamed of who I was pretending to be. I knew the lie was the greater sin, but I couldn't justify allowing my true feelings to be known, for fear of immediate removal from a world I had grown to love more than life itself...my Navy world. Now at 61, I am no longer in fear of things that might make my life miserable, like naysayers, haters or those who do not understand what being gay truly means. I'd love to shed a light on that, but so far no one seems to actually care - most think they know - others simply do not care and honestly I'm okay with it all. I wake each day, give my honest to heaven thanks to God above for keeping me on this side of the dirt. I enjoy being alive, being honest and true with myself and never having to wonder if someone likes me or not. I live a single life, a solitary and peaceful life - and it suits me to a tee. I watch too as my fellow brothers and sisters are ripping each other apart over politics, religion, masks, no masks, vaccinated vs the unvaccinated and I pray harder and harder, with a most sincere heart that we find our way back to humbleness, compassion, patience, empathy and understanding - the way it was not so long ago -when we, the class of '78 were finding our own way in this world. Maybe you have come from a place where bias and bigotry were the staples you were fed - maybe you never ventured further than the borders of your hometown/state - maybe you spend your life allowing others to tell you what the world is all about, without trying to learn about it on your own. Or maybe like me, you came from a place where you weren't taught to accept things from a different perspective - that you'd best stick to your own kind if you wanted to make a life for yourself - and like me you decided this mindset wasn't going to be enough for you - that instead you wanted to explore, get to know people of all faiths, colors, cultures - get to know your own self and learn how not to be self serving, full of hubris and crass ideologies. You made a choice to step out on the ledge and with one more step become a completely different soul - someone you could be proud of without being pious. That has been my personal journey - 1978 till current. Life is such a fantastic journey, and I love sharing it, even if just in words can give us a lot. Happy Trails to my Classmates of Shaw High School - 1978 - God bless each of you who remain on this great plain.
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