Rick Lever:  

Life Am I building character? Or just becoming one? Life is so funny sometimes...well most of the time actually. I fought being who I was created to be, fought authority, fought with just about anyone that wanted to fight (and some that didn't want to) Spinning through life out of control basically making a mess out of everything you touch, with anger as your only fuel gets really expensive really quickly. Things that happen early on in life shape our view and approach to other things later in life. It was so easy to blame everybody and everything for every little bump I had to absorb on my journey. After pretty much pushing away or destroying everything and everybody that I perceived to be a threat to "who I was" (I didn't really KNOW who I was... or more like I did KNOW but I ran from it) or conversely pushing away anyone that tried to love me or show me compassion in any form. Not only was I afraid to love and suspicious of it at the same time...all the while needing it more desperately than I ever realized or could even admit to myself. The endless and destructive cycle of substances and "things" I sought out to anesthetize the pain i...Expand for more