Ron Hansen:  

I grew up and went to college in Michigan. I lived in England while I was in the Air Force. I moved to Sydney, Australia after I finished college and lived there for a year and a half. I then moved to Denver Colorado and lived there from 1970 to 1992 when I moved to the mountains west of Denver. I have been in Sedona for over 18 years. I have been either self employed, unemployed, or under-employed since 1977. I really want to do something different. I want to get back out in the world. I'm tired of sitting alone here doing nothing. I tried really hard to make money at being a mediator of business disputes, and I also tried to become a tour manager. I have just about given up on finding something to do in the world to make money. I was married from 1973 to 1986. We didn't have any children, and we split in a friendly manner. I left her the house, and I took the bills. We were good roommates, not lovers. The spark was missing. During my first forty years of existence, I lived most of my life by myself and for myself, making almost everyone else wrong for living their life as they did. I had resigned myself to inactivity, waiting for something great to happen, thinking it should happen just because I was living a life of doing only good things. In other words, treating other people as I would expect them to treat me. I felt I had lived my life speaking truth and giving forgiveness, and at the same time thinking that all the other people were wrong for living inauthentic lives based on self love values that made them feel good by increasing the power of their self image at the expense of others. I had reacted to confrontation with others by going limp, passive, or in effect jammed up unable to do anything. In fact, that was how I reacted to almost everything in life, except sex. I did anything and everything to avoid confrontations, emotions, being wrong, and looking bad. I would not intrude by speaking unless I was sure it was important. I had life figured out. The world's problems were caused by people letting emotions run their lives. Therefore, I eliminated any expression of emotion, and I didn't need anyone's help. I had not been happy with my way of existence, and ever since I was 16 or 17 years old I have been trying to change. First by being in a high school play. But, I would always fail at changing my life because I was worried about how I looked or how I may damage someone else by my actions. (I had to be a good person.) Other p...Expand for more