Sandra Savage:  

I am, Sandra Leigh Savage. Hello there. I wanted to tell you who I am as a person and tell you about me. I hope you keep reading. This story is a true story of my life in school and in my personal life to today. This story is to get your attention on bullying, and how I could have chosen a different path than I have, and chose life, over suicide. This is my story of being bullied. I survived. Many didn't and haven't. When I was a child I was abused, physically and forever emotionally by the events that had occured to me and to my life of my family and friends. Growiing up, I was bullied. From every direction from my perspective, and I want to connect what has happened to me in this way, and how much this is attached to my life. I was a bad and misbehaved child and even now into my mature adult years I still rebel because I still have bullies to deal with, in my life now. But who doesn't? Bullies are everywhere and get away with a lot in society, but is getting stronger on the bullying stories. And I am one of them. When my family moved out west here to BC from Ontario in 1981, I didn't handle the move very well. It was a huge change in my life and the lives of my family. In 1983, tragedy struck our family and it has never been the same since. Everything changed for me when this tragdey happened to me and to us as a family unit. During this time of family adjustments to get used to siince the after effects from an accident, from a careless driver. Who forever changed my family. Years later, it still lingers on in my life. During this time, I was of course going to school. Going to church and youth group and then we moved churches and found a new church. Lots of changes. Sometimes going back east in my thoughts and living in what life was like back east. Leaving my family and now everything has changed for me so abruptly and I had no choice but to deal with everything I was going through. All during this time I was being bullied by my new classmates. They teased me, to the point of if it was someone else in today's date, they probably would have probably committed suicide. I didn't. I continued to live by my Christian faith and have been my whole life. When I was a teenager, at the age of sixteen, i was raped, twice. I never told anyone about it, and they got away with it. Both of them, were not my fault or did i ask for it or intentionally brought it on. As well during that year, I was rushed to the hospital from an overdose and had my stomach pumped. I won't even go to that place again. It's just such a painful time of my life. All of this happened when I was in high school. My high school years were the worst years of my life. Aside from my husband's death. I was bullied relentlessly in high school. I survived. I am a lucky rare chosen one, to live and to share my stories with you. To tell you what bullying does to a person. One of my memories of going to high schol, was when I tried to commit suicide by swallowing a bottle of aspirin, I told a friend I trusted. She was the only one I told. She yelled at me and called me stupid. When I was in grade 11 drama, my bullies from middle school, followed me into high school. I couldn't handle life anymore, so I turned to alcohol. I was drunk everynight. One night, one Saturday night, I was so drunk, I woke up the next day and I was still drunk. I was unseen, and invisible. So, I went to church drunk. My minister at the time said I was "not welcome" as part of the others in the congregation. And now I am a recovring alcholic. The only love I felt I had at that time, was Jesus Christ. In my Christian faith. And to this day, I continue to live in Christ and I get my inner strength from Him. Everyday, when I would walk home from school, alone and in my sadness, I would siing a song to Jesus. Psalm 61:1-4. "Here my cry O God; listen to my prayer. From the ends of the earth I call to You, I call as my heart grows faint; lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For You have been my refuge, a strong tower against the foe. I long to dwell in Your tent forever and take refuge in the shelter of Your wings." Finally, when high school was over, when I moved out of my parents home I became even more of a mess of my life. When I was nineteen, I found out I was pregnant. I was elated, but the father wasn't. When I misscarried, he was elated and we broke up. I was devastated when I lost my first baby. At that time, I was a mess. I had figured out some things by that time. That any man can rape me and that I have "rape me" on my forehead. That the only thing I was good for at that time was someones use, for some use, with strings and sex attached to everything. Then, on August 11th, 1990, at a family members wedding, I met Andrew. Andrew Michael Savage. Andrew and I fell in love quickly and our whole relationship was quickened, as we were married on July 11th, 1992. We had our first child, my son in 1994, then my second child, my daughter in 1995. I was married now, I became a mother and fell in love with my children. Life could only get better. Then came January 12th, 1996, Andrew and I broke up for the final time due to strains in our marriage. He started going down hill fast past this time. On Easter Sunday, on, March 30th, 1997, Andrew committed suicide. On April 8th, 1997, the most catastrophic event happened in my life and on April 8th, we found his body. Andrew had been dead ten days when we found him. When you find a loved one dead from ...Expand for more