Carolyn Martinez Johnson:  

Who I was then was a drug and alcohol induced zombie. That is the only person my school ever knew and tried to avoid. That's fine, I didn't need ya'll in my chaos anyway. I am now divorced and remarried and had to leave Texas to figure out who I was and what the hell it was that I was trying to find all the years of my life. The big turning point, I believe, is when my Dad passed away in '97. Right after that, my life got 10 times more complicated than any of my friends and family could have ever imagined. As a bunch of you may remember, I grew up in the Mormon church. Well, I ended up putting myself into rehab at 40 years old, it was a Pentacost Rehab. I found God and therefore, found the strength to look myself in the mirror and have my eyes meet eachother for the first time, I believe, ever in my life. There was so much I did wrong, so many persons I hurt on purpose, so many family and friends cut their ties with me and now, in retrospect, I surely don't blame them. After rehab, I stayed in a sober living home for a additional 8 months before I got back with my second husband, Brian. We are still together 9 years later. We are both volunteers for the Department of Corrections and help out at a local church that does a prison ministry. I have tought a women's Celebrate Recovery class off and on over the years. I have also told my testimony numerous times to hundreds of women there. If I can clean up my act, truly stay clean, anybody can. I have done midnight runs to get womens kids out of bad situations when they get out of jail and start using again. I have had the children stay at my house sometimes 2-3 days at a time till the parent quits using again. I have taken these women with their kids back to their family across the state, just to get them to where they have a network of people to help them when we can't anymore. Jesus died on the ...Expand for more