Clayton Young:  

tupid back then . it's funny i had one picture of her that my mom took of us at graduation time her in her striped dress and me in my cap and gown , i carried that picture with me untill the late i990's when it was lost in things destroyed in a divorce ... i will not leave this part of the bio up for long as it is maybe too personal and perhaps just another foolish thing for me to do but i no longer care ... if Her sisters and brother see this they already know , if she sees it i guess it will mean nothing but maybe she can forgive me for walking away after school ( god am i a fool for posting this ) Life continued with 3 failed marriages and innumerable relationships with little in common Music was always my love and shared with only one person in all these years. we sang well together , we loved music above almost anything else. to everyone else my love of music was something to laugh at , and to ridicule. without this remarkable woman in my life my music always was forced out of my life except as a plaything in their eyes good only as a distraction. Not so with M.B. I Identify with the character Eric in Maury Yeston's "Phantom" and i remember the one I loved some 35+ years ago but was terrified to admit to . as the character Christine ( even though my friend was an alto II ) the final realization of those feelings , and the possibility that my fear may have been the cause of her not caring after all these years ... if i had things to do over who knows ? I am far from perfect and i have made many mistakes in my life I may not be proud of everything I have done but I really believe everything we do is a part of who we are . as long as we learn from the past , we move forward . I have no real regrets but there are things i would have done differently. If i stop learning i may as well order a box. I have found several people I had lost Currently developing a Messianic Jewish Congregation Dallastown, Pa ( just south of York Pa) Some things that offend me : 1) People who say we need to understand why we offend the Islamic people and correct it , then they will not hate us and want us dead. ( who is teaching that lie because i refuse to follow Islamic law and worship Allah to make someone else's god happy 2)It bothers me when people usa Hashem's name in vain. no i do not mean cursing i mean such overuse of the Tetragramaton pronunciation or the name Jesus or Yeshua , to the point that it sounds like you are every other word yelling HEY god , Yo god are you there god , are you sure you can hear me god. He hears us before we utter the words. 3) people believing that they must use the "Holy Name " of G-d in every part of the worship and prayer and praise when we do not know the accurate translation of the tetragramaton many say to me hey Clayton the Jehova's witnesses have used that name for over 100 years and others say Yahweh is no doubt the translation but since there is no vowel pointing in Hebrew I like to err on the side of respect and instead of assuming something is right because some say it is right think of all the vowel combinations (in hebrew and their English equivalents (yawa ,yawe, yawi ...yuwi ,yowa, etc (h's left out intentionally ) and the changing of the name Yeshua ( or Y'shua) into something that is again inaccurate (Yeshua is actually mentioned by Josephus (1st century Jewish historian) in his documentation of that time period. Yeshua translates in ancient Hebrew into the English "salvation" the various Y-ho.y-hu, etc forms do not . Any but the first of these things that bother me are choices that are personal but still bother me but do not negate a friendship, and even the first one if you are a Christian or a Jew and believe you must bow to islam i will support your right to as a free person break the first commandment (I am the L-rd your G-d... you shall have no other gods before me) these are my views and i make them public and as i do so i know some will be furious that i feel this way , if it hurts your feelings i am sorry , but i am also no longer going to let on as if i am happy with these things being pressed on me . May HaShem forgive me for offending anyone with my opinions unjustly , for in all reality i truly love all my brothers and sisters in and out of the body of messiah. and until you show hate to me i will accept you as who you are and set our differences aside and call you friend".