Doug Jones:  

I have a lot of time after a 25 year marriage that ended in divorce Spent a lot of time in the Middle East after a 18 year military career that ended in a medical discharge then a bad accident March 11 2021 that came close of taking my life after losing my service dog when I blacked and wrecked 13 days in ICU since then a lot of time spiraling in depression thinking about the things I’ve done the people I’ve hurt along the way and after 9/11 I got back in military and volunteered to spend about 19 months in the Middle East in hopes that maybe I wouldn’t come home One of best units I had the privilege to serve in and had a great team that I done missions with being a infantryman was a great experience but by the time I was medical discharged I had 7 mos’s I was trained in I really loved my last school I graduated from 13 fox forward observer doing reconnaissance but my body give out after I had accident in Mosul I should have took medical but infantry way you suck it up and drive on I went over with my brothers and wasn’t going to quit on my men as NCO you lead from front roughed out 3 months with ruptured disks in lower back torn minuscule tear left knee and had 30 % tear right bicep 20% tear right tricep and was dealing with ptsd anger from first tour that which I got hit in Baghdad in 2007 I tried to finish my career out but was cut short when we got stateside I was sent Ft Knox for 2 years going thru medical that which I wigged out on a colonel for screwing with some of my men that which that episode costed me 2 years mental health 3 times a week then the other 2 days had to see other physiological dr the worse thing about all that and the surgeries was being discharged from the military I had no purpose in life I really loved being in the Army I ain’t gonna lie it wasn’t a bed of roses but looking back at all the hard times and what toll it takes from you it changes you you learn to be dead on the inside to cope with what you go through when you’re deployed. You learn to shut all emotions down when you go out the wire you learn to leave all that your are going through on the family side and issues and then what you do out the wire you check it at the gate but by doing that your basically living 2 lives but you still carry it with you but you duty it down deep but that old friend the dark side is always there took me 13 years with mental health to get it o...Expand for more