Marshall Halladay:  

My father never accepted the fact that I was his son. This, coupled with a mother who could lay on feelings of guilt equal to anyone in history, started my lifelong association with depression, guilt and feelings of inadequacy. I fell deeply in love with a friend named Ruth Evans but I don¿t think I ever told her just how I felt, or if I did she didn¿t feel the same about me. When I quit high school in the fall of 1959 to join the navy I asked her to write to me, which she did for a while, but then stopped writing and would not answer my letters. I later found the reason for this but it did not change my feelings for her. I still love her today, even though we have not had contact with each other for over 50 years. These things set the stage for what happened next. Shortly after arriving at my first duty station, in New London Connecticut, after attending the navy¿s engineman school at Great Lakes Illinois, I met my first wife. She was married and had children by at least two previous husbands, but since she was the first woman I had sex with, I thought I was in love with her. This marriage was doomed from the start as I was too young and inexperienced and she couldn¿t stop chasing men in uniform. The only good thing to come out of that experience is my daughter Donna. I met my second wife in Portland Oregon but this marriage was also doomed due mostly to my drinking and inability to be a decent husband and father to our two children, Nikki and Mike. Mike has since passed away. After a failed attempt to change my life by movin...Expand for more