Robert Kienitz:  

On January 28th in 2020 I was in a bad place and mentally, emotionally, financially and spiritually. I was involved with a toxic married woman who had lead me to believe that she was going to leave her husband. My estranged wife had told me that the two kids conceived during our marriage were not mine. I was behind with rent as well as many other financial obligations. I saw no light at the end of the tunnel. I thought that no one loved me. That no one would love me. On January 28th I left work at lunch went to get my taxes done. I figured that my family would be better off with some money. Came home and was informed by the woman I was seeing that she had never intended to leave her husband. It was the final straw. I opened a bottle of chema clean (black water tank cleaner). Took a picture for Facebook and waited for someone to stop me. After an hour with nothing I just knew that I honestly had no friends or family who honestly cared. So I downed the entire bottle. I sat in my rickety chair and felt the liquid running down my throat. Then thoughts of my mother, father, my adopted parents bridget and Denny came racing in my mind. I decided to live for them if for nothing else. I tried to make myself throw up first in the kitchen sink then the toilet. At some point I passed out. Don't know how long I was out but when I came to my cat was walking back and forth on my side. I heard simba crying for his dead father. I forced myself up and not wanting to disturb anyone else I drove myself to the UT er on 271. Its just a mile down the road but I don't remember the drive. I remember stumbling into the reception area and sitting the empty bottle on the counter, then laying on a bed, the nurses and doctors taking my clothes off, and seeing brigett and Denny. Over the next few days I was in a state of semi consc...Expand for more